It was dark. Darker than he could remember. No stars. No moon. Just the vastness of the universe. Day turned to evening and eventually into the night and the emptiness of the sky. He was tired but had no desire to sleep for fear of where that might take him. He thought for a moment. […]
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What do you think is the most important thing a narcissist steals from you? Admittedly, that is a heck of a question. However, it is a big question that needs to be asked. It can only help your healing if you can drill down to the core of the problem. How are you meant to heal
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I no longer sleep late on weekends. Truth be told, I now am exhausted by 8:30 and fall asleep before 9:00. I am usually awake by 4 AM and after lying in bed for a while I get up and stare at the stars. It’s always the same thought. How did this happen? How did
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“Nobody likes you. Everybody hates you. You’re gonna lose. Smile, you fuck.” Joe Hallenbeck, The Last Boy Scout. Let me get this out of the way. When lists are short, I am good. I am horrible at almost everything. I have to say “almost” because I am sure there is something I am good at,
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According to the Mayo Clinic narcissistic personality disorder is defined as “a mental disorder in which people have an inflated sense of their own importance, a deep need for admiration and a lack of empathy for others. But behind this mask of ultra-confidence lies a fragile self-esteem that’s vulnerable to the slightest criticism.” The Diagnostic and Statistical
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Fasten your seatbelts. We are in for a bumpy ride and a rockin’ landing. If you have frequented my textually transmitted unease or just stumbled onto this site, please stick around. This is from a personal point of view. It must be shared. Whether you’re an adult child, partner/spouse, or other family member of a
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So, I’m a guy with low self-esteem. Sucks to be me. I’m saying that as a dude who used to hate himself. Stop. I still hate myself. I know. Boo hoo. Nobody cares. But exactly why do I hate myself? And why does it matter? I don’t have an answer. It just does. But I
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He had to be. How else do I explain her? She has a kind heart and a fantastic soul. She is magnificently good-looking, but this is incidental; looks fade for everyone, so her personality and character must shine through to keep your attention. But truth be told, she is still the most exquisite woman I
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“She said you don’t understand what I saidI said no no no, you’re wrong, when I was a boyEverything was rightEverything was right I saidEven though you know what you knowI know that I’m ready to leave‘Cause you’re making me feel like I’ve never been born She said you don’t understand what I saidI said
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When they publish my manuscript, I am changing the name to Justified. Justified in devaluing me. Justified in keeping all my stuff after I kill myself to hurt you. Justified in telling our young adult sons I along with my family were not worth knowing. Justified in announcing the mistake you made in agreeing to